Tuesday, May 5, 2009

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The present moment

I am having the life choked out of me. Every muscle and fiber is twisting in pain. I am gripping my  body in agony and uttering cries that I don't even recognize as coming from me, cries of unspeakable grief and terror.

Welcome to my world.

Tomorrow my sweet dog will be taken from her cage, put in the same truck that took her from me so long ago, and driven to Porters Lake to the vet clinic, a place she will recognize. She will not know what to expect. She will be sedated and given an injection in her back for a local anesthetic. And they will cut out the cyst or tumor or whatever it is and stitch up the hole. They will put her back in the truck and take her back to her cage. Nobody will stay with her the rest of the day. 

Because my lawyer did not respond promptly to the city's only offer of a visit since January I did not get to visit her before the vet appointment. And the city lawyer did not put in writing that I could be there during the procedure as he had promised over a week ago. If I want to see her in a few days or the day after I have to plead for another chance and submit to the SPCA's 12 conditions for a visit. Under protest as advised by legal counsel. I want to see my dog but not just once. I want my dog back home with me. 

I am wrenched with pain and it is endless and brutal. I am crying out in pain like a wild animal. I cannot eat or drink. I am just like the animals who have no rights, no legal rights, my own property is being illegally held and that is confirmed by lawyer after lawyer and yet none will go and get her out. 
And the charges filed one hour before deadline are leading to a kangaroo court where I will still not have my day in court because dogs don't really ever get the same treatment as people: there is a strong presumption of guilt and you cannot expect the same rules of evidence to be applied, and the court has full license to kill or send away or anything they like. It is no comfort at all. 

And it will take another two weeks before I can know if the cyst they remove from my dog's spine is malignant or benign. Something else to look forward to. 


3 comments:

  1. Be strong. You are strong. I admire you so much, you and Brindi. This is just one day closer to when you two will be together again. Don't lose hope. You've got a lot of people behind you on this. More and more every day. We're with you on this.

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  2. This is just a horrific story! First, get a new lawyer - one that CARES!!! Second - get your story heard - call every newspaper, radio station, and tv station in the area. Make a personal PLEA video to post on CNN's iReport. Make flyers with your story and post them where dog people hang out, like dog parks and pet stores. I found the story through a tweet. Good luck to you! I can't imagine anyone doing that to one of my babies!

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  3. Hoping you write soon to let us know how the surgery went for Brindi. Our thoughts are with you.

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